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The black eyed monster
Mar. 11th, 2005 08:31 amFor the past month or so, I'm afraid that my depression has been particularly bad. I'm managing it, but I'm afraid that there isn't all that much that can be done. Mostly it's a matter of finding things to do to stop myself from thinking.
Unfortunately this also means that I've been more avoidant of anything even slightly challenging and haven't been keeping up with a lot of things that I'd like to be doing but would cause me to become disheartened and down. Minor setbacks cause major distress when I'm in this state, so its best for me to not attempt many things rather than try and potentially fail. This in and of itself leads to feelings of failure and inadequacy, but for the time being damage limitation is the watchword.
Don't get me wrong. This sort of situation would usually cripple me, and I'm still gelting some things (like housework) done. This is just by way of explanation if I've seemed distant or inactive of late.
Unfortunately this also means that I've been more avoidant of anything even slightly challenging and haven't been keeping up with a lot of things that I'd like to be doing but would cause me to become disheartened and down. Minor setbacks cause major distress when I'm in this state, so its best for me to not attempt many things rather than try and potentially fail. This in and of itself leads to feelings of failure and inadequacy, but for the time being damage limitation is the watchword.
Don't get me wrong. This sort of situation would usually cripple me, and I'm still gelting some things (like housework) done. This is just by way of explanation if I've seemed distant or inactive of late.
