Emotional weather

[sesquipedality]

It's back again - everything seems grey and pointless, and I have no desire to do anything. I'm clinging on better than I usually do - housework is still getting done, but work on the project and on sorting my life out a bit has more or less stopped. I wish I knew why I so often felt like this - why it's so difficult for me to gain enjoyment out of life. I'm just fed up with clinging on like this, crippled and unable to accomplish anything.

Comments

[rowan-leigh.livejournal.com]

Have you been diagnosed with depression? (Sorry if I'm already supposed to know this--I've not been using LJ much at all until a couple of days ago.) It sounds likely to me that you are. In which case, the answer is: brain chemistry. You might have already known that, and it's even likely that you were being rhetorical in the first place; I'm worse at picking up social cues from text even more than in face to face interactions.

Shall I shut up now?

[sesquipedality.livejournal.com]

I have what is known as chronic depression resistant to treatment. Which means that whatever is up with my brain chemistry, they don't know how to fix it with drugs. Thanks for your thoughts though.

[rowan-leigh.livejournal.com]

Ouch! I'm not sure what to say now. I'd offer sympathy, except that you're probably sick of it by now. (I have depression myself, and can't imagine how awful treatment-resistant depression must be.) But it's there if you want it.

[jo-english-bint.livejournal.com]

>everything seems grey and pointless, and I have no desire to do anything.

Sound so familiar. Not much use or help, but you are not in this grey pointless world alone!

*hugs*

[lanfykins.livejournal.com]

No, she has me :)

Gosh, it's grey and depressing here in Slough at the moment...

[crocodilewings.livejournal.com]

What TV theme tune would most readily match your current mood?

[sesquipedality.livejournal.com]

Twin Peaks

[crocodilewings.livejournal.com]

How about Dallas?

[leathellin.livejournal.com]

What music most describes how you would like to feel?

[sesquipedality.livejournal.com]

Most of the music from Amelie would work.

[liriselei.livejournal.com]

everything seems grey and pointless

here, have some color.
not sure how to help dispel the clouds, but if there is anything i can do let me know. wish i had the answers, if i did i'd have applied them myself long ago - though as for accomplishing things, isn't coming up with and starting on the project already an accomplishment ?

[evilmomlady.livejournal.com]

My heart really goes out to you. At least you're managing the housework, so that is something. Hopefully you'll be feeling up to carrying on with your project soon.